2008: Like 2007, but older. - justin_guber

2008: Like 2007, but older.

I wasn't even looking at the time. I didn't have too. As soon as midnight rolled around to usher in the brand spanking new year the fireworks set off with a bang into the night sky and crowds outside whooped and cheered and shouted and yelled in merriment.
Not me.
I've been very pensive, of late. I've never like the months between September and February as it is usually the time of the year when I'm at my most negative.
The worst period of this was probably in the winter months between 2000 and 2001. Winter in London means the sun rises late and sets early, and I always seemed to fall asleep just as the sun came up and wake up just as it went down, leaving me a vampire, roaming the night, pensive. The lack of sun, the loneliness and the events that unfolded during that time (which shall not be mentioned to protect the innocent, including myself) left me an emo wreck, listening to the Deftones' "White Pony" album on repeat within the confines of my room.
Here, the sun is bright and shinning, but I find myself, over the past few months, following a similar routine. I don't sleep till 4am, sometimes as late/early as 6.30am, and I find myself waking up later and later.
On the final day of the year 2007, I woke up at 4.30pm. I slept earlier that day at 7am.
2007 was quite the sporadic year, as far as blog entries went. The posts were few and far between and usually took the form of some kind of pimping of whatever endeavor I was involved in at the time. Was this because I was busy? Perhaps. For the first half of the year, perhaps. But I've been busier. At the height of my blog entries, I was working an advertising job whilst also recording an album and shooting a movie. That was almost three years ago.
The truth is, I didn't know what to write. The reason I have this blog is not just to pimp out my increasing number of endeavors, but to write what's on my mind. I'd find a comfy place to plug in my wifi card in my (now ancient) laptop and type away, lost in the realm of words, the keyboard my conduit.
But the places are not comfy anymore, and the words aren't coming to me. The mind is in a maze and the heart is in knots. Things are wibbly-wobbly indeed.
I hope it's not the same for you.
...
...great fucking way to start the first post in this blog for 2008, huh? Pray for something weird to come my way. Like a herd of wilderbeast or something. Go on. Do it for daddy.

31.12.07 21:03

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Ram (1.1.08 13:51)
Hey dude,

2008 has started off pretty pants down here too, caught the flu over Christmas and haven't been out in almost two weeks nursing a damn chest infection. Highlight of 2007? Sitting in a pub with you buddy, surrounded by choir-singing Swedes.

Hope the New Year does something good for ya.

Justin Guber (2.1.08 08:55)
My man, that comment's one of the few things to have put a smile on my face since the year began. Upload the swede vid! I don't have the cable for my phone!